Tibetan monks

I have almost literally no self control. I think it stems from my intense drive to accomplish my goals no matter what. If I want to get something done, it will get done if it is at all within my capability. Telling me I can't do something makes it more fun when I do it. To some extent of course. I also have the intelligence to know there are some things I shouldn't do and I don't let those things hold any interest for me.

But then there are some things that I know are bad for me but aren't exactly outlawed totally, and those are the worst. Just foods. Ok, mostly foods. Well, and staying up past my bedtime. And netflix. 

Okay so there are a few things in that category. 

I have several divisions of "bad things" in my mind. Like there's leaving the lights on in a room when I leave and not throwing away trash and things like that. And those are numerous but easy to fix because they don't require a lot of energy. And then there's the opposite end of the spectrum with things that I would never ever ever do because they're inherent evils and I know they would have horrible consequences. It's the middle that causes all the problems. Things closer to the extreme side are easier to avoid. But seemingly "little" things like not eating that cake and going to bed at a decent hour because you know you have to get up in the morning are difficult because it's easier to convince myself they're not so bad. If I could ever convince myself that those things were unspeakables too then I'd have far fewer problems I think.